Most of the time I mosey along, happy to be working in and on my business, enjoying the freedom and control I have to do what I want – when I want.
But some days, I feel a creeping unease – something which for a long time I just thought of as ‘stress’, but for which I have now pinned down a more accurate term. In these moments, what I feel is the “Tyranny of Being Finished“.
You see, when you run your own business, there’s no such thing as ‘Finished’. There is always -Â always! – something more you could be doing.
I was always one of those kids who had their assignments done days ahead of the deadline. I liked to get things done. I never liked deadlines hanging over my head – being up against the wall always stressed me out.
And so, it is with some amusement that I come to see that I’ve chosen a career path that leaves me constantly running against deadlines – to get orders complete, to get *bespoke* to print on time, to get blog posts done and posted…
On the whole, the path I’ve chosen makes me very, very happy. I love being in charge. I love being in control. I love being able to dream up new ideas and then bring them into being, without someone telling me I can’t.
But I don’t love never being done. I think this is why I have never enjoyed any sort of housework. In fact, I used to think at length about the futility of cleaning when I worked as a commercial cleaner during uni (one has to pay the bills somehow!). The fact that the cleaning was never, ever done – it was only temporarily suspended.
No doubt that old saying ‘a woman’s work is never done’ has popped into your head about now. When you have a job (disclaimer, not all jobs, and obviously this does not apply to most professions) you can go home at the end of the day and forget about it. At least, until tomorrow. For a few sweet hours, you have freedom.
I think the perfect example of this is school. When you were at school, or uni, those weeks that stretched between the end of one year and the start of the next were a kind of dream-world of freedom. No exams, no assignments, no work – just time stretching in front of you, to fill as you saw fit. At least, that was my experience! And oh, how I enjoyed that freedom…
However, I realise that ‘The Tyranny of Being Finished’ and I will need to make friends if I am to continue down this path I’ve started upon.
I need to be able to confront him at the end of the day and say “Enough! I’ve done enough, I’ve done my best, and that will have to do – at least for today.” And then I can rest, and sleep, with the knowledge that tomorrow I will pick up where I left off, and continue to do so into infinity… without fear.
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(This post is re-published from JessicaVanDen.com)
Do you feel the Tyranny of Being Finished in your life and biz, too?Â
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Hey Jess,
I totally agree with you, there is always something more to do when you work for yourself. You really need to find a way to switch off to have a work/life balance….I have not figured out how yet!!
I also love what I do now, but I think my favourite job was Kitchen Hand when I was at Uni…I worked hard, but it was fun and I left it at the door.
x Tracey
I completely understand what you mean. What helps me when I have lots on my to-do list is to remember a job I used to have as a hospital nurse. Right before change of shift was a super busy time, and for some crazy reason it was when the housekeeping department scheduled the dear cleaning lady on our floor to vacuum the main hallway. We would feel badly getting in her way as we raced up and down the hall, tripping over the long hose of the vacuum. She tried her best to stay out of our way, but we probably drove her nuts getting in HER way. True to her kind nature though, I can still remember her saying, “Oh that’s okay honey, what I don’t get today, I’ll get tomorrow.” I loved the reminder that yes, there will be another time to do what needs to be done, and still think of it often.
Hi Jess, when you fear thought of being “done” i read “being finished” the same thing as “done”…you attached a fear to “done” to something you were comfortable with ie “being finished”, it sat right within yourself…does that make sense? or am i talking gibberish? I think the only time you need to be afraid is when you run out of ideas and inspirations..and that, i dont think you will ever run out of!
Only when it comes to housework! There’s always something that could be done.
I work best under deadline pressure. Especially, since I sometimes procrasinate. It worked beautifully when I worked for a news wire service, multiple deadlines a day. Although it does burn you out after a while.